Powfu & Rxseboy - when the hospital was my home Lyrics

when the hospital was my home Lyrics by Powfu & Rxseboy

Feel the wind blow, I can hear it in my left ear
Sounds like when you whispered to me but you're not around here
Life is slow, sleepin’ twelve hours a day, ayy
Since I had my surgery, it's never been the same
I'm sick and it sucks, my friends barely visit
Every week that goes by and I’m feelin' more distant
Try so many times, tryna chip away my fear
Prayin' when I'm sad thinkin' of our younger years
First night that you kissed me, cuddle watchin' Disney
Now I wait at night for a text that you miss me
Every second is a blessing when you're standing at my side
We didn't see this coming, it’s okay to say goodbye

It’s okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry I'm not stronger

Speak to me with honesty, it’s harder than we thought it'd be
Tell it to me straight, ayy, I don't want no "probably"
Tell me when you're tired ’cause I'm gettin' tired too
The rain is feelin' heavy and the sky isn't so blue
Pills for my breakfast, promisin' it'll heal me
Hangin' out with doctors and starin' at the ceiling
My favorite days are Mondays when you come and see me
Wish you would stay longer but I know it's not easy
Yeah, I was excited for that concert
Tell me all about it, did they sign your new Converse?
I don't wanna let go when we hug
The thing worst in dying is losing who you love

It's okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry I'm not stronger

Noticed all the pain that you deal with
Was sick of all the doctors sayin' you heal quick
Spend a couple days since you left sayin' it hurts
Your girl just called me said she's pregnant and that would've been my first
So shocked when she told me
Why didn't she tell you?
She thought you'd leave the world thinkin' your promises have fell through
You always talked about her, you were ready for a son
Now he'll be watchin' over him, free of pain
Know that one day he'll look up and feel your love

When I get to heaven I will wait for you
Sorry for the things that I put you through
You had to watch me flatline, wishin' that was bad time